Delirity

Today is Jesse’s last day of finals. Tonight we’re going to a friend’s house to celebrate the end of their 2nd quarter of chiropractic school. Then we’ll be busy…

We leave for San Diego Sunday evening, so this weekend will be filled with laundry and packing and making sure we’ve got all the important things (like the rings!). Busy busy leading up to 2 weeks of fun and (hopefully) relaxation.

Odds are we won’t be online much so there won’t be much posting. I’ll try to get up a picture or two from the wedding, but you guys just might have to wait until we’re back. Have a wonderful few weeks either way!

In elementary school I was a girlscout. In junior high I was in builders club. In high school I was in key club. All my life I’ve been in organizations where I’ve spent at least some of my time helping people.

I haven’t done any volunteer work in about 5 years. I miss it. It seems to me that I should be helping out somewhere. It would be a good way for me to meet people too. The problem? I’m having trouble saying that I can give up my time.

When we moved up here I had planned on helping with Habitat for Humanity while I looked for a job. It never happened. Once again I’ve got an e-mail into the local group asking what is involved and if I could come just 1 day or weekend a month. I’ve also e-mailed a local botanical garden that uses volunteers to help maintain the grounds. I was thinking about volunteering at special events at the zoo.

There’s something about all these things that makes me nervous. Will I have a good time? Will I meet people? If I volunteer by myself am I going to feel alone the whole time I’m there? If someone else comes with me, will that make it harder to meet new people? This never used to be a problem. We always did things as a group and had a blast volunteering. Now I’m on my own and exploring new territory. But, I’m going to do it. If I don’t like it I won’t do it again. Simple.

Any ideas what kinds of volunteer groups I would find people my age at? I’m thinking habitat for humanity might be a good bet, though I’m not sure.

Over the weekend Jesse and I were able to go pick up our wedding rings at Margulis.

Despite our worries, Jesse’s ring fits perfectly! A few weeks ago they had gotten his ring in, but when we had him try it on it was too big. We worried that the smaller size would then be too small. Thankfully it’s just right.
And my ring is gorgeous. I have to admit, I was a little worried going into the store. I had chosen an eternity band and last week I dropped off my engagement ring so that they could take out the diamond, cut a space in the new ring, and place the diamond into the new ring. There’s a lot of room for error there, but the ring turned out perfectly. Like I told Jesse “It’s shinier than I expected, but I’ll get used to it!”

I’m thinking that it’s bad luck to post any pictures of them before the wedding, but I promise to put some up after!

5 years ago Jesse and I were sitting in front of my house in his dad’s car, holding hands. We had finally reached a point where we were going to try dating. We weren’t sure how it was going to work out since his family was about to move to Washington and in just a few months we’d be at separate colleges, hours apart.

1 year ago Jesse took me for a special anniversary dinner at the Hotel Del Coronado’s Prince of Whales restaurant. That night he proposed while we were taking a walk out by the water.

This year we’ll be eating corned beef and cabbage, watching Lady and the Tramp and having a relaxing evening together. This is our last St. Patrick’s Day anniversary since we’ll be switching it to April Fool’s Day here in a few weeks.

I love that we have years and years of fun memories with each other (like our “date” to the movies that occured before we were dating, while I was dating someone else). I love knowing that we’re going to have so many more wonderful memories together. Happy Anniversary Honey!

• Work on making friends here (actually hang out with the people we know!)
• Retype or scan recipe cards (I can’t believe I forgot to have them saved off my harddrive!)
• Go back to cycling class (by the time we get back I’d better be healed up enough to go)
• Try to get outside more (walks around the lakes, in the neighborhood, whatever)
• Reevaluate time priorities

When you spend 2 hours in traffic every day, you lose a lot of time. But I’m convinced that there’s still enough time that I should be able to squeeze in some things post-wedding that haven’t happened so much. One of the things I’ve been thinking about recently is getting out to go dancing. When we moved up here I said I was going with or without Jesse. Go figure, I never went. I wanted to enjoy all my new found time with Jesse. And then I got a job, things got busy with the wedding, and now there really isn’t time. But I still think about it. The truth of the matter is that I miss going out dancing even if only once every month or so. But… if Jesse doesn’t want to do it will it be as much fun? And is making time to go do that the best use of my time? Maybe there’s something else I can do that would make me just as happy (if not happier).

As great as things are up here, I do certainly still have some inner turmoil about my activities and if they are enough. I know rest is important (especially right now while I finish up the healing process from my car accident and prepare for the wedding), but doing things you enjoy is what makes life worth it. I guess I’d better work on getting things straightened out in my head, hmm?