Delirity

Apparently I’m a little slow on certain things. After over a year of wearing my wedding ring day in and day out, the skin under it got really red and raw. I spent a weekend with my ring off, rubbing neosporin on it constantly. It still wasn’t all better, so now I take it off at night and put more lotion on.

Now, I know I’m not really good about cleaning my ring on a regular basis and probably some chemical or soap didn’t get rinsed off and caused the irritation… but when I was at the jeweler’s yesterday they told me to brush my ring every day, boil it once a week and take it off every night before bed.

Seriously?! I told my mom about this (especially the “I can’t believe you’re supposed to take your ring off every night” thing) and she said that most women take their rings off every night. How is it that I had no idea? Ugh. Ok, I get it now. I may not be able to clean my ring quite according to the jeweler’s schedule, but I’m gonna try… at least until my finger is back to normal.

After my very frustrated post the other night I decided to focus on doing things for myself this week. I decided to start drinking my everyday detox tea in the mornings at work. I decided to leave work after 8 hours every day. I’ve been reading in the evenings. And my husband said “I need to get off sugar now” which helps me eat well.
Because Jesse wants to put in the effort to get off sugar, it should make it easier for me too. He talked to a teacher at school who apparently has some of the same horrible sugar cravings he has and she suggested taking a probiotic to help. So yesterday after work I stopped at Wild Oats and picked up a few things. We’re doing a candida cleanse which involves taking 2 pills and 20 drops of some stuff in the morning and evening and probiotics, fish oil and fiber in the evening – plus, of course, eating a diet with very very little sugary type things. Supposedly this will help kill the cravings, partly by killing any candida/yeast in our systems that feed on the sugar and help cause the cravings. We’ll see how it goes.

I’ve been back from vacation for a while now, but unfortunately things sort of fell apart at work while I was gone (not because I was gone) and since I’ve been back I’ve been working a lot again. Too much. Mainly because we’re now very short handed. But, we’ve got some high school interns for the next few weeks to help with the tons of manual labor we’ve got (unboxing different parts, labeling computers, setting up computers, testing computers and handsets…), so that should help.

I’ve been so busy with work and life that I haven’t really had the energy to focus on myself. That, combined with being injured for so much of last year and the beginning of this year and I’ve gained more weight than I care to admit to. I need to buckle down, clean up my diet and get myself into the gym on a more regular basis. I’m just not sure I can do it yet. That sounds stupid and I know I’m just going to have to do it – but when there’s so much else going on that I have to juggle it’s hard to find the extra willpower. I know I need to do it for my health though… so, baby steps.

Jesse and I have been doing a lot of sitting recently. I’m not sure if it’s a good thing or a bad thing. It’s good that I’ve been sitting and relaxing instead of doing work on weekends or in the evening. It’s a bad thing that I’ve been watching so much tv instead of going to the gym or doing more practical things around the house. But, it’s actually something I’ve made a concerted effort to do for myself.  And I’ve been reading! Yes, it’s more sitting, but it’s something for me and it’s something relaxing. In my own ity bity ways I will find easy ways to do things for myself and eventually that relaxation is going to help me be better prepared to put my world back in order. (That really makes things sound like they’re all messed up – it’s not that messed up – it’s just not how I want or need it to be. But more on that later.)