Delirity

… and I’ve decided that I’m not as good at pondering the big questions as I used to be. Maybe it’s because there are more big questions now. Maybe it’s because now the big questions are more relevant.

Some of the things I’ve been thinking about:

• What would I do if we had “enough” money without having to work – would I stay at my job? would I volunteer? would it be time to have kids? look into buying a house?
• When Jesse is back here from San Diego (sometime in the 2nd half of the year – and no, he hasn’t left yet, but that time is creeping up very quickly since he’ll be done with school in 2 weeks) will we have enough discipline to not buy a house and try to pay down some of our debt/save up a nice down payment before we get really excited about one?
• Why is it that when I read books I’ve always got the question in the back of my head ‘what will I read next?’ and ‘when will I be done with this book so I can get on to the next one’? Where did this feeling even come from? I love reading, so why can’t I be 100% into the book I’m reading at the moment?
• How much of what I do is reactive and how much is principle driven? How can I shift my actions to primarily being principle driven?
• Do I get grumpy because of my job? Is it because I haven’t cultivated other interests? Was I just naive before when I was happy all the time? Was I really happy all the time?
• In terms of buying a house I think when we eventually do it we need a yard so we can have a garden.
• How cool is it that my husband wants chickens? I would love fresh eggs, but I totally can’t guarantee I’d touch the chickens… good thing he’s on board!

I definitely have more questions than answers. I know they say college is supposedly the time you learn about yourself, but all my big questions seem to be coming up now. I think my brain was too preoccupied with schoolwork when I was in college.

I know that most people won’t be excited about this, but I have a functional immune system! Everyone in my office has been sick recently. I finally started feeling a little under the weather, but after a few days of rest (and continuing to treat myself to echinacea tea for the rest of the week) I think I’ve beat it!

I think I finally have a functional immune system. And I’m pretty sure I owe it to my lack of wheat. Wahoo!

1. Recommit to Flylady – Jesse is on board doing the missions every day. I’ve been fairly consistent with doing weekly home blessings and keeping the sink shined. I’d say we’re making progress!

2. Continual Reassessment of Finances – 2 meetings down with our financial planner, 1 to go. We’re in the process of applying for life insurance and we actually have $20K in the bank to see us through the turbulent rest of the year.

3. Run 250 miles – So far I’ve run 32 miles this year (if you look at my little Nike+ sidebar, subtracting 150 will get you close to how much I’ve run this year). That’s about 10 in January and 20 in February (plus, I’ve done 10 miles of hikes in February). Not only that, I’ve run in freezing cold weather, I’ve run on snow/ice (with my Yaktrax), the only thing I haven’t done much of is run in the rain yet because I don’t have any suitable rain gear. I never would have believed I could run in such conditions!

4. Watch AFI’s 100 Years, 100 Movies Top 10 - Jesse and I watched Citizen Kane a few weeks ago and enjoyed it. I don’t think I’ll ever really need to see it again, but it’s amazing that a film that is still incredibly relevant.  We’ve got The Godfather (the whole triology actually) waiting to be watched, next to our tv.

5. Find 5 Ways that I Want to Give Every Year – I realized that I already have 2 ways that I give on a regular basis – at Goodwill and The Red Cross. I take monthly/bimonthly trips to Goodwill to donate things that we don’t need and since last July 4th, I’ve been giving blood every 3 months. Kind of makes me wonder why it took til now for me to consider that giving doesn’t just imply monetary gifts. I’m still working on figuring out other organizations that I feel strongly about.